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That was an winter evening, me and one of my friend were traveling by a bus. There was nothing special to speak about as we were just going back home from university. It was like a normal day but something was a li’l abnormal. Now in Calcutta we are having so many facilities. There are new buses (some of the people is calling them “sundori”), all old monsters are gone , some of the middle age monsters are being seen. We were in a new bus (not a “sundori” but new EUROII). There was usual number of reserved seats marked as SENIOR CITIZEN , HANDICAPPED .It was expected that there are seats denoting MALE and FEMALE. But we found MALE was written as MEAL and FEMALE as FEMEAL…
Some of the other passengers were talking about the thing and laughing , we did too. But some how it was striking me. Is this the way we are called educated civilized? Is the society clean and calm enough so that we would sleep ? Is this the right party time ? have we been prepared to follow al those? I travel by bus everyday to the university and cross B.T.road . I can find at least 200 to 300 people , inhibiting roadside. I am proud to be a student , a teacher and perhaps an Indian . I like to enjoy my life .Like to dream , cry and be happy , but what about them ? The MALE or MEAL could not make any change in their facial expressions, it all the same . We are giving the help by providing a BPL card , but truly is it sufficient ? Did we do enough for them ? I am just wishing , but is it all I can do? I don’t know what to do. But it is haunting me somehow -A male on d roadside is preparing his meal in a bowl just next a huge dustbin ..
I know the social equilibrium is an utopian concept but is it hard to provide them the basic needs ? It is a crime to provide parties and disco’s in a country where almost 2/3rd of the total population is below poverty level . What is the purposes of scientific researches ? To enrich country’s proud feeling , to make the civilization moving on? But it is not the right way to think I am civilized. We are not WE without the 2/3rd or India’s population.
It is a winter morning to wish all Merry Christmas!
We are having plans to enjoy the day 25th December . Just think a while and make a real wish what we can provide them . I am also thinking , as it is the moment to make changes and take resolutions that can change our surrounding and our lives also..
Merry Christmas …


Fire&IceLots of things are changing around me.No,perhaps I’m changing so much.Everytime my goals are growing higher.To some of you it is natural and ideal to be able to perform in the rat-race.Dissatisfaction is a distinct feeling opposite to satisfaction,but what i’m feeling after every achievement is not of that “dissatisfaction”,something more cruel.Suppose when I’m achieving in a height to be able to maintain a motor-bike,I’m not happy with that,as it “it is not happening without a CAR”,but it was my only target 2-3 years back!!Now Success is like a mirage.Needs are growing day by day!But sometimes I feel scared thinking to where these things are taking us?won’t it leave me in a confinement?In a complete coercion of materialistic comfort.But who cares?this is the life to enjoy!!do it!!

The morning sunshine does not make me happy,as I have’nt ever dreamt a moonlite night,or shiny morning.All I dreamt is my success.It’s all about climbing and climbing untill I can find a hill-top,from where I can see my near and dear ones but touch.This is the only target of modern life,I am living.This is only the contemporary progressive  civilization.Somtimes I wonder if this is a civilization?Am I going forward?or all these are transition towards past.I am in a circulr queue,running in an infinite loop.I dont know from where I came and where to go?all I know is to move  and Past or futre?I really dont know!!I’m waiing for the Ice-age to come again and again….

30614766_592befb3a1It is raining inside and outside.Today is a simple day ,nothing special about it.Daily power cut,all the “yarki”s we have,but a staring-no one knew it was special.a secret,a story that no one knew but only us and kind of support inside that glance.It was a wonderful time we dreamt together,we thought together,we had grown up together.It is good to see ones happiness everywhere, now we are parting,probably going to own destination,A life is going to be successful,like a free bird tried to fly for the first time.spreading its wings in the sky,but looking at ground.All these are true but after all this is a farewell.We are going too far ,not even holding hands as our orbits are non overlapping perhaps.but there is a will,a wish to intersect at another point of time,not here exactly,or may be here! Farewell!!!

160x160_SunWatch It’s dark.I’m walking through a narrow lane.I cant see anything,but feel there are hundreds of lives like me,are going through the same lane.  This is a world of sound only.I can’t remember how my world looks like,how peoples are,who am i? Where I am coming from and where to go ?It’s all about “NOW”,only a moment like when  I was dreaming ,the first drop of rain touched the ground silently,then the 2nd,3rd and so on.And then a life turned into another one.I can’t remember me anymore,I am now only the past of the future “me”.It feels like the darkness of mother’s womb,I can’t remember what it was exactly but can feel,Or like the first kiss,there was no one in the same time,in the same world to feel like this,and never would be anyone.”NOW” is a call from future and and a echo from the past .It is always a chorus,I am headed to.A predefined destiny is following me from a distance.So NOW  just to play a role on intersect of senses and numbness. NOW is a trading off between memories and ignorance…